I wrote THIS post this afternoon, but left out the details of what inspired the post because I didn’t want it to be the focus of the post, but I figured I would write it out here, for catharsis more than anything else. I apologize for not updating in a while, I hit a writing slump and just haven’t felt like putting pen to paper. I hope to change that once I’ve gotten the events of the last couple of weeks off my chest.
In August I accepted a position with a company that I thought would be a good fit for me. I was told there was a possibility for rapid advancement since the company was growing rather quickly. When I was called into HR a month and a half later and told they were hiring someone to replace me when I was promoted, I was ecstatic. Two weeks later, when I received my 60 day evaluation, I was told there was a minor problem, but so long as it didn’t continue, there wouldn’t be a problem.
I was very obviously lied to about that last part, and more than likely the first part as well, since they were aware of the problem when HR brought me in to tell me they were promoting me. To say it was completely out of left field is the understatement of the century. Our team is pretty small, so I was already pretty close to a couple of people there, including my direct supervisor, who was the one who told me about the “minor problem” a few weeks before I was let go. Hurt and confused doesn’t even begin to cover how I’ve been feeling the last couple of weeks, but it’s time to move on and get past it.
As much as I’d like to wallow and be angry at the people who lied to me, it isn’t productive, and all it does is hurt me and my chances of moving on to bigger and better things. I’m trusting God to show me where He wants me to go. If by some chance any of the people involved read this, please understand that what you did wasn’t okay. I made mistakes, and I’ll own up to them, but you lied and didn’t consider what kind of an impact your actions would have on me and my family. I trusted you to be honest with me, and you couldn’t even do that. I’ve forgiven you because holding onto the anger and resentment I was feeling has no impact on you, and just brings me down. But that doesn’t make it okay.